Aariz Shauqii & Md Fais.
=)Kids really do make us smile.


Whenever I signed in to Windows Messenger, it just never failed to remind me of someone. Someone whom I really adored. My late Grandmom.

My siblings & cousins expressed, in their own ways, how they missed Nenek. Just like I do.

Today is the 38th day that late Grandmom passed on. The happy moments we family had still lingers in my mind, especially when I went through the albums. 15th May 08 will be the 40th day but kenduri Arwah will only be carried on 2 days after that due to unavoidable reasons.

Insyaallah after kenduri Arwah and all, we will be heading to Pusara Abadi.





Words can never express how we miss you.
=(


Only the first quarter of the year, yet there were so many unforeseen things that had been happening around. 23rd March 2008 will be the date which I will always remember in years to come. Not only it's 2 days after my age day, but it was the day that changed everything in my life.

Something had happened to my grandparents on the faithful day. I wouldn't elaborate much on how the incident took place though. Those who had read the papers, count yourself lucky. My family & relatives had been spending exactly 2 weeks, keeping vigil by my grandmom's side praying hard for her that things would go on fine in the days to come. We came to SGH Burn Unit every single day and left the place with tears.

My grandmom received a 40% burnt and my grandpa, 10%. Therefore, my grandmom condition was rather serious compared to my grandpa. Doctor had informed us that her percentage of surviving is low as she's already aged and there were lots of complications in her. Hearing that, tears began to roll. I forced myself not to believe what the doctor said and kept telling myself that my grandmom will recover. I know she was strong.

She spent the first 8 days in SICU as her condition was very critical whereas my grandpa was admitted in the normal ward only on 26th of March when he came for his follow-up. Both needed to undergo skin grafting which I tell you was VERY painful, although with anaesthetic. But alhamdulilah, my grandpa was recovering well.

8 days in SICU for her before she was moved to HD ward for the following 4 days. HD ward is a step lower than SICU. Therefore, patients whose state of health improve will be pushed to the HD ward, still under careful observation. Looking at the situation at that point of time, we were relieved. We thought that there was still hope. It was in the HD ward that I last spoke to her, due to the countless tubes in her. I asked her how was she feeling, and her replied was "Sakit, nak balik." I told her that everything would turn fine and it's only a matter of time before she'll get back home. At that time, I couldn't hold any longer. I asked her to rest well and I went out tearly.

The light that we saw, only lasted for a while. Her health worsened and again, was sent back to SICU. All was at the peak. She wasn't responding to the medicine, milk and so on. And her kidney started to fail until she needed to undergo dialysis. Seeing all these just made our heart sank. Chances of recovery was very slim.

The next very day on 6th April 2008, around 4am, we received a call from hospital saying that my grandma's heart had stopped few times but they managed to perform resuscitation. We rushed down to the hospital and was told of the bad news. Doctor told us to leave all to fate and those who haven't been visiting my grandmom were advised to come before it's too late.

By 9am, the SICU was totally crowded unlike the norm whereby, only 2 visitors were allowed in at a time. Relatives from Johore, Malacca, KL, close friends, friends all came to gather. Right when the clock stroke 1.21pm, my grandmom stopped breathing. We cried. Cried like we've never cried before.

To lose someone close to us for the first time wasn't easy, especially to my siblings and I whom she had looked after for 20 over years. She was like a mother to us. In all occasion, we grandchildren will always be her first priority. She never failed to leave us out whenever she wanted to go holiday. She never failed to cook extra just for us. She never failed to give us pocket money everytime we went out. She never failed to put a smile on our face. She never failed to do laundry for us although she was not well. Life had been very difficult without my grandmom around. I believed, in our family eyes, Nenek is a lady that cannot be replaced by anyone.

Walaupon hajat Arwah untuk berangkat ke Umrah pada 02.06.2008 tidak kesampaian, tapi kami percaya bahawa niat beliau telah sampai terlebih dahulu. Nenek, kami semua rindu teramat sangat padamu. Semoga kamu diletak bersamaan mereka yang beriman. Semoga roh Hajjah Hasiah Binte Hassan dicucuri rahmat. Al-Fatehah...


We'll always miss you, Nenek.
May you have a speedy recovey, Atok
<3

Those times......


The place where grandmom passed on.



This was where we peeked.



We didn't abide by these.



The everyday entrance/exit.



The place where we sat as a whole.



The office.



HD Ward.



The place where late grandmom was pushed out to the mortuary.